If you know me, you know I love Dave Matthews and his band.
The title of my blog is from my most favorite (my husband hates when I say
most-favorite because favorite is indicative of one, therefore, you wouldn't
have a most…) Dave Matthews Band song “Don’t Burn the Pig”. This song speaks to
me, and offers great advice, too.
((While you read why I love this song so much, click
HERE to listen to the song!))
I love Dave’s lyrics because there is a realism about
them. He speaks from a place of “a-16-ounce-glass-has-8-ounces-of-water”.
Neither a place of “glass half full” nor “glass half empty”. He is neither optimistic,
nor pessimistic. He writes songs of real. Of what is. The good, the bad, the
ugly. Yet, you find happiness in his lyrics and in his melodies. This is pure
happiness.
PURE HAPPINESS – choosing happiness, when it isn't the
obvious choice.
For example, Dave (yes, we’re on a first name basis) has a
song titled “Funny the Way It Is”, and these are the lyrics: “Funny the way it
is … on a soldier’s last breath, his baby is being born” Pure Happiness is choosing
life, despite death. If you choose a happy life without thinking of its end, are you
really enjoying it?
Choosing happiness through an optimist’s perspective would
be a skewed version of pure happiness. “Out of sight, out of mind” isn't what’s
real. If you ignore death out of fear of death, the happiness of life isn't
whole. The happiness of life is marginalized to the bounds, which you set.
I've experienced far too much death. Especially for a 24
year old. My children will never know either of their biological grandfathers. It’s
just what is. Does the lack of my father’s presence detour me from enjoying
Christmas? Does my father-in-law’s birthday inhibit my ability to laugh and
crack a joke? No! Because I, too, will die. It’s just what is. I am, however,
blessed with today. And today, I choose happiness – pure happiness – life in
the presence of death.
“All good things come to an end sometime. So, don’t burn the day away.”
It seems fitting for me. For all of us.
“Don’t Burn the Pig” hints at those who “ask for more from
above like a greedy little pig”. You have been blessed with today. What shall you make
of it?!
I’m about to be honest. I am about to set my pride aside. I
am making myself vulnerable, for the hope of growth. I have burned
too many days away. Even knowing that I am not guaranteed tomorrow.
I have been a greedy little pig - literally! Over the past few years, I have been faced with LARGE amounts of stress. I always thought I tolerated stress well, and had a poor relationship with food. Over time, I realized it's quite the contrary. I eat poorly when I am stressed, and THIS isn't living life to it's fullest.
I feel like I have been on the losing side of a never ending battle. I have prayed on and on about my inability to lose weight without God. I have begged for Him to help fight my enemy (cupcakes. the devil covered in sugar). It wasn't until recently that I realized God is using this journey to show me my true enemy. Cupcakes may be an obstacle along the way, but my enemy is PRIDE. So much so, that I could not even be honest about my weight to my husband, who loves me unconditionally. About 3 weeks ago, I LIED about my weight, while looking my husband in the eye. After that "little white lie" came across my lips, I realized why I kept failing at my (very long) weight loss journey.
Since then, I have been praying over my pride, and I have been at peace. Here I am today making myself vulnerable for the ability to grow. Here I am today realizing I have a lot more to lose than a few a lot of weight.
With that said, I hope you all keep me accountable! In the past, I have signed up for Weight Watchers, but never kept with it. Why???? Because I was too mortified to share my journey with others. It's no secret that I have a few a lot of pounds to lose. I kept it a secret for a fear of failure. HOW CAN I ENJOY SUCCESS WHEN I FEAR FAILURE? It's very much a possibility, and ignoring it only limits my potential for success.
In order to be successful, I have to choose success. It is up to me. THANK GOD, I don't have to do it alone. I have a wonderful, powerful support system.
Last Wednesday, I signed up for Weight Watchers, for the last time, and here is my weight loss story!